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Ez nagyon personal, de nem tudok csak reszleteket betuzni, mert ez igy egesz, es igy tesz boldogga. meg akarom ezt is osztani veletek, mint minden mast eddig is.

ugy latszik, hogy megis sikerult szepen befejezni.
:'(


"I agree with you on everything you wrote and I accept your decision completely. I won't contact you again after this email until a day comes where you feel you would like to have that coffee with me. You are right, it causes pain.

I will take as much of the responsibility for the destruction of the relationship as you feel is correct because I can also see that you are right. Perhaps we simply weren't the right people for each other and it was too much effort to make it work.

All I can say is that anything I said about you to anyone was because I was hurt, angry, confused and upset. I think you can ask anyone I spoke to and they will also see that I loved you dearly.

Perhaps the hardest thing for me to accept is that I had something so good and maybe I was the one who destroyed it. and I can see why. I didn't want to upset you. I don't want to hurt you because I think you are one of the most special people I have ever met and I wish you every success in what you are trying to do.I don't want to cause you pain while you are trying to improve yourself.

I know you will get everything you want because you have the right attitude. It is something I admire you for and something which I will learn from you.

What you miss from the relationship is not pointless for me to know because that person is still me. You can keep that inside you like I will keep the good things from you inside me.
It was only my outlook, pride and sometimes hard headedness that caused me to act in ways that we different from the person you met on the first night.

I DO understand everything from your side. I was simply the person left behind and that person will always find it difficult to accept it more than the person who leaves. but that can be my punishment. i'll take it and learn from it. We both have growing up to do before we are ready to settle down. I think that was our biggest problem.

My disatisfaction with anything in our relationship was only because I wasn't adult enough to appreciate the important things in life. A lesson I have learned so well now.

Thank you for replying. I hurt but it helped. I realised many of the things you said but perhaps I wasn't prepared to look at them deeply enough.

Self realisation is always the hardest to accept.

So good luck with your adventure.
You do it very well and everyone should be very proud of you. I am.

If I felt used, I don't now. I know you couldn't do that and my feelings of that were male pride and refusal to accept my own part of the problems.
I am happy if you feel I have helped you get to where you are and I hope your journey continues to be a long and happy one.

Thank you for everything you gave me. You gave me a lot. Even if I couldn't see it.

This time will be good for both of us. As we knew before you left.Sorry for any pain I caused you. It was never direct against you. It was only stupidity.

Take care of yourself and best if luck with everything.

Stay positive. There is no other alternative."